I hate when every thing seems wrong in your life and you can’t tell the people around you because they will ether they will be worried about you which will not help or they will think less of you.
Like a couple of weeks ago I went home with a guy and we fooled around. He seemed nerves and keeps getting up 2 have a smoke. Then after we were done and sober I realized I haven’t asked the question that I ask every time.
Are you D&D (drug and disease) free?
He looks at me and says” you should have asked that question before” then says ” I’m HIV positive ” then tells me that his viral count is at zero. he gives me his doctors name and a tone of info. this whole time he keeps saying ” Its no big deal”. he offers to come to the ER with me but is way to drunk 2 at this point.
I walked down by myself to the nearest ER at 4 am.
ever sense then I’m scared!
I don’t know what 2 do excepted get tested when they told me to and that’s all I can do.
Every time I think about it I get nerves and want 2 cry. I just keep telling my self its all going 2 be ok.
Dose any 1 else do anything when they get scared?